Twisted and turned upside down
If you are new start here . I have always found comfort and pleasure in food...and then food became my enemy. I did not originally enjoy exercise but simply endure it...and then exercise became my sole focus and my #1 priority. I love and adore and value my family above all else...and then they became an interruption and an obstacle to my workouts. I have never had stronger, firmer muscles, better endurance or more discipline in my life for anything like I have for working out for the last couple of years...and I have never been weaker in my ability to fight and overcome something like this that has such a strong hold on me. I have always had control issues and a desire to control everything and the ED definitely stems from that sense of control- over my body, my weight, the scale, etc...and yet it has completely taken control of me and left me powerless to control my exercise compulsion. About a week before I went into an in patient residential treatment center for my eating disorder,...