Unpredictable.
I found out recently, so is death. My father-in-law passed away and though it was not unexpected, it was also not at all what we expected. His health had been frail for years but it was not his cancerous lungs or his ineffective kidneys that took him down. It was a dislocated hip. 😢
Thankfully, we had enough notice for my husband to go and be with his father, who lived about 1000 miles from us. Still, it has been a whirlwind.
Work has been unpredictable- as one would expect considering I teach pre-school for a living. Unpredictable is unavoidable in a classroom of 9 two years olds! I love the chaos and craziness of my little class though. My students keep me on my toes but I revel in the joy of toddlers.
I do not welcome the chaos and unpredictability of all the administrative stuff. Staff changes, schedule changes, never knowing what to expect (or what is expected of me!).... professional craziness is not my thing....
Home life has been unpredictable. While we were out of town for my f-i-l's funeral, our power went out. We got home to find a makeshift set up with a temporary power box and wires all over our yard. We were told they would fix everything within a few days. Today (over a week later), we were told it may be another month before they get to it. 😦
When life is unpredictable (as it always is), those old coping techniques feel like a comfortable security blanket. I am tempted to turn to an intense workout and sweat all my cares away. Or avoid food altogether in exchange for the peace of hunger pains and control.
But, I am still fighting the good fight. I am still striving to hold on to the recovery I have worked so hard for.
Since, life and recovery are unpredictable though,we'll see where tomorrow finds me!
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