hitting bottom/straining forward
Sometimes you have to truly hit bottom before you are able to change momentum and move forward...... I think I finally hit bottom.... I think I finally realized I AM still " sick enough "... I once heard that food is the addiction of the responsible. Meaning, of course, that eating disorders are most prevalent in type A, perfectionist, overachieving go-getters. I am a total perfectionist. I am responsible & reliable to a fault, at times. I am a poster child for eating disorders, I guess. I have also been teetering on the edge of starvation and extreme malnutrition from anorexia for the last few years. Prior to that, I exercised compulsively but in a somewhat balanced manner, if that makes sense. I have obsessed over my weight and attached it firmly to my self-worth my whole life. I have never had a healthy relationship or perspective on eating and food and exercise. But, I have always been functional. I have always been responsible. Eating disorder recovery is n...