The soundtrack in my mind

I used to love this song:

 

I heard it yesterday and realized my perspective had changed....  

In treatment, they called eating disorders "ED." They talk about the disorder as though it is a separate person living in the brain of those afflicted. That is an incredibly accurate description. 

So...when I listened to this song I recognized ED's voice loudly and clearly. Imagine this song playing in a loop in your head all day long...but usually with a role reversal (though it DOES work both ways)...

How do [you] get through one night without [me]
If [you] had to live without [me]
What kinda life would that be
Oh you, you need [me] in [your life], need [me] to hold
[I'm your] world, [your] heart, [your] soul

If [I] ever leave
Well, baby [I] would take away everything
Good in [your] life
And tell me now

How do [you] live without [me]?
I want to know
How do [you] breathe without [me]?
If [I] ever go
How do [you] ever, ever survive
How do [you], how do [you], oh how do [you] live

Without [me]
There'd be no sun in [your] sky
There would be no love in [your] life
There'd be no world left for [you]

And you, well baby, [you] I don't know what [you] would do
[You'd] be lost if [you] lost [me]

If [I] ever leave
Well, baby [I] would take away everything
Real in [your] life
And tell me now

Please tell me baby how do [you] go on

If [I] ever leave
Well, baby [I] would take away everything
Need [me] with [you]

Baby don't you know that [I'm] everything

Good in [your] life

 Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Diane Warren

My dietician, who is an invaluable blessing and support in my life right now, randomly sent me this in a text last night:

I think THIS is a much better voice to have in your head....trying to listen for the still small voice of truth and love....the voice of Jesus whispering these lyrics into my head:

Who said that you weren't beautiful
And that you didn't belong in your own skin?
Who said that you were all alone
And that you're never gonna find love again?

So many little words, so many little lies
That have followed you all of your life
Looking for the truth, look into your eyes
And you'll see it's been there the whole time

Ooh, even when you were running
Even when you were hiding
Never been a moment that you were not perfectly loved
When you barely believed it
When your eyes couldn't see it
Every single moment, you've always been perfectly loved
Ooh, perfectly loved
You've always been perfectly

In the hands of the Infinite
As the wounds of the world became His
See the kindness Heaven has for you
And how He's always been drawing you in

So many open doors (so many open doors), so many miracles (so many)
That have followed you all of your life
Looking for the truth (looking for the truth), look into your eyes (oh)
And you'll see its been there the whole time

Ooh, even when you were running
Even when you were hiding
Never been a moment that you were not perfectly loved
When you barely believed it
When your eyes couldn't see it
Every single moment you've always been perfectly loved
Ooh, perfectly loved
Ooh

You're not a problem
You're not a mistake
Don't need fixing or solving
In the arms of His grace

You're perfectly human
Made from the dust
You've got a heart, broken and scarred, yet perfectly loved

Oh, even when you were running
Even when you were hiding
Never been a moment that you were not perfectly loved
When you barely believed it (when you barely believed it)
When your eyes couldn't see it
Every single moment you've always been perfectly loved
Perfectly loved
You've always been perfectly loved

Ooh
Perfectly loved
You have always been perfectly loved

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Andrew Ripp / Ethan Hulse / Rachel Lampa

Perfectly Loved lyrics © Essential Music Publishing, Mamaknowsmusic